Addiction

When I heard about facebook for the first time, I was pretty anti-technology and I was pretty sure I’d never want to try it.  Then my husband moved to another town to work and I was pretty bored and lonely all week when he was away working.  A friend of mine convinced me that getting a facebook account was safe, harmless and a good way to stay connected to people so I decided to give it a try.  Well, she was right and she was wrong at the same time.  Having a facebook account was so much fun at first and it was so interesting to see what people posted and reconnect with friend I hadn’t seen or heard from in years.  But I have to admit that I was pretty shocked by some of the things I saw and by the way many people treated me online.  Some of my younger friends were incredibly rude and my older friends just seemed to ignore me a lot.  But I was in control and disciplined myself to check my account no more than once every 3-4 days and never in the evening or at night.  That was 5 years ago.  My facebook account has become a serious problem in my life.  It’s added drama that I couldn’t have even imagined, misunderstandings with people I barely even know, family tension and even a long-distance stalker.  (I had one other stalker before but it was a person I had met in real life at work).  So in short, I’m in the process of breaking my addiction.  I’m really tired of the emotional rollercoaster that facebook causes and tired of feeling let down by friends and family and constantly feeling suspicious that whatever I put online will eventually be used against me in some way.  What a fiasco!  Since it took me awhile to get addicted to facebook, I’m guessing it might take a little bit to break the addiction.  For now, I’m going to use tumblr as my “methodone,” and hopefully wean myself back to a policy of checking facebook only once or twice a week.  Any input, help or suggestions that anyone might have for me as I go through this process would be welcome.  Thanks! 

I heard a message once where the pastor said that most people think the universal language is LOVE.  He said that in truth the universal language is PAIN and the only escape from this pain is the love of God through Jesus Christ.  I think that’s true.  I believe we can only experience truly selfless love when we accept Him into our life, receive his for real love, and then let his love flow through us.  That’s the difference between the world’s version of love and God’s version.  It’s humility, selflessness, brokenness - love that costs something and not just giving to get something in return.